Ever think you were really good at something, only to find out – you’re not! …Can you recall a moment when you were faced with the realization that what you thought was a strength, in a new light, was actually a weakness? Ha!
I remember a time before I was married thinking I was quite a catch! I honestly thought I was the most patient, supportive, flexible, open-minded, fun, friendly, positive, rock-awesome gal ever! And let me tell you whoever was going to marry me was going to be one lucky guy!!! HA! Ohhh life! It has a way of whooping you around and setting you straight, doesn’t it?! Unfortunately, when it sets you straight, so often, it isn’t pretty, lol. It didn’t take long after we said “I do” to realize that there wasn’t anything wrong with my husband, it was me! Yep, I said it, me! Turns out – I overestimated my ranking in several categories, lol. 😉 I realized real quick what a “fixer-upper” I really turned out to be!
Then, there was motherhood. I spent the months leading up to the birth of our son romanticizing what it would be like. I had his life planned from birth to marriage and then fatherhood… and he was an amazing father by the way. 😉 As for me, oh did I know myself so well!!! I knew exactly the kind of mother I was going to be! So well equipped! My thoughts went something like this: “This is going to be the best thing ever! We are going to laugh & play all day. I am so fun, this is perfect!… I am going to rock motherhood! … What a lucky kid this is going to be!” Right?! UGH!!! I had once again overestimated my awesomeness. I had always been a very, very, patient person, or, at least, I thought I was! What makes a normally very patient person, impatient? Turns out, for me, the answer is kids, 2 births in 14 months, will do the trick. Then add in the *no sleep* factor and you have a real life momzilla on your hands. Awesome? I think not. I cannot tell you how thankful I am that most kids don’t remember much before age 2! 😀 I think that, in and of itself, is evidence of Gods grace, mercy, & compassion, :-D. After I had time to reflect on it, I have come to believe a person can’t, truly, grasp the true meaning of patience, until they have been blessed with children. And then, just when you think you have mastered the art of patience… you begin to homeschool, lol! The good news is you become a better person because of it… you get better, much like practicing a talent/skill.
After the initial shock of my ‘mini identity crisis’ I realized I am a work in progress… and that’s okay! All I can do is pray, stay in the Word, &, of course, brace myself for what’s next 😉